We pulled up outside my mother's apartment complex. We got out and stood around in the dim, yellowed lights and the falling snow, and the boyfriend said something about having to check the rear brakes on his car before we went in. I was about to get into a whole conversation with him about bleeding his brake lines, when I noticed that my old girlfriend was already starting down the walk towards my mother's building. She didn't feel like standing around and waiting for the rest of us. I wondered what my mother would think, having my old girlfriend show up on her doorstep, by herself and without any explanation. She had never liked the girl. She certainly wouldn't start liking her now.
But when the rest of us got up to my mother's apartment, we found my old girlfriend sitting in the corner of the living room in a plush chair beside the Christmas tree, sipping a cup of coffee. My mother had welcomed her warmly into her home, and she came and took the rest of our coats and we all settled in on the couches. There were carols playing on the radio and the tree flashed its scattered patterns of colored light. I got up and went to put the case of beer in the refrigerator. When I got back, the rest of the family had arrived, and everyone was packed into the small warm room. I saw that the chair in the corner was empty. I looked around. My old girlfriend had slipped out and she was gone. I knew I'd never see her again, and I knew it had to be that way. I sat down on the arm of the couch and watched as the kids crawled around under the tree looking for their presents.

The beginning gave me an uneasy feeling - the social awkwardness, the possibly simmering feelings of the others. Accentuated by talk of checking the brakes. Came to a climax towards the end, but then it seemed to be a proper closure, ghosts of the past banished forever. Did it feel that way to you?
ReplyDeleteYeah, that about sums it up, although in the dream, it was little more pleasant than that. Those "simmering feelings" kind of dissolved away.
DeleteI don't dream much, but I've had a few dreams like this, and I'd consider them nightmares. I hate social awkwardness more than anything, and I especially hate the thought of an old girlfriend trying to talk to my wife. Which is funny, because I've never done anything truly horrible, so it's not like she could tell her anything that would shatter our marriage, but just the thought itself is nearly paralyzing.
ReplyDelete*phew* I'm glad I'm not the only one then.
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