Since I didn't officially hold the deed to the house, I suppose I was technically homeless, or at the very least a squatter. With my ragged coat and unkempt beard, I looked every bit the part. The police would frequently stop by to harass me, knocking at the door or tapping at the window pane. It seems that they couldn't exactly prove that I didn't own the house, but they hoped to trip me up with their questions. Sometimes I suffered these interrogations with as much polite equanimity as I could muster. Other times I couldn't deal with it, so I took to to hiding down in the cellar with the spiders.
On one such occasion, as I crouched in the dark, I could hear the officers' muffled voices outside. They were taunting and threatening to arrest another homeless man that I knew who was a friend of mine. I heard the thud and tired groan as he stumbled into the snowbank, followed by the cops' laughing as they hauled him up. I felt compelled to respond to this. I stirred in my damp hole, but then a strange hand, more prudent than my own, reached out of the dark and covered my mouth, preventing me from calling out. If I came to the defense of another homeless man, I would be giving myself away.
On one such occasion, as I crouched in the dark, I could hear the officers' muffled voices outside. They were taunting and threatening to arrest another homeless man that I knew who was a friend of mine. I heard the thud and tired groan as he stumbled into the snowbank, followed by the cops' laughing as they hauled him up. I felt compelled to respond to this. I stirred in my damp hole, but then a strange hand, more prudent than my own, reached out of the dark and covered my mouth, preventing me from calling out. If I came to the defense of another homeless man, I would be giving myself away.

What an anxiety filled dream! I see themes of protection, threat, innocence vs knowledge, withholding vs giving away. What do you make of it?
ReplyDeleteI see the workshop kind of representing the mind...maybe. I see myself withdrawing from confrontation, wanting to be left alone to think and daydream. I'm not sure of the significance of it not belonging to me, or of me being a squatter...or an old man for that matter.
DeleteAt any rate, yeah...there seems to be a lot going on here.
And who did that hand belong to, to be so prudent and wise. Someone so far down on his luck that he had to squat under a squatter in a basement full of spiders. Or were there as yet undetected spaces down there, perhaps more palatial than you would think? Could the simple hovel above be mere camouflage?
ReplyDeleteOr am I reading too much into it?
That's the crazy thing about that hand! It just comes out of no where. I don't know who it belongs to. It just hints at something more.
DeleteYou know it's weird too that you say that about "more palatial than you think" Earlier, during this same nap, I had another dream where I dreamt that I was down in my own "real" basement and I discovered that I had this huge Rec Room with several different pool tables, big screen TVs, and a jukebox.
DeleteI actually had quite a few dreams yesterday, but my mind settled on the one above to write about and now most of the others have unfortunately dispersed into oblivion...as often happens.
That second one was just dreaming that your life is way cooler than it really is. I have that one all the time. Sometimes even when I'm still awake.
ReplyDeleteAmen to that.
DeleteNow I keep going into my basement prowling around looking to see if I have a room like that.
ReplyDeleteNo luck so far....
Believe me, I was disappointed when I woke up. ;D
DeleteThe current running through the lily reminds me of something out of a Myst sequel.
ReplyDeleteOh, I used to love that game! Somehow, I never got around to playing the sequels though.
DeleteOooo.... Yes, it does. I loved Myst too. Those were awesome games.
ReplyDeleteI have an old copy of it, but it doesn't seem to work on newer computers D':
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